what kind of laughter did you hear?
whose voice did it claim itself to be?
what was barren was unborn.
what was kept was unkempt.

the laugher of the cruel,
claims my ears.
it's chime echoes down
lonely halls.
its voice, like angels,
pure and sweet,
laughs as pain
claims my heart.

it spoke to me
that lonely night,
just as tears drops
fell from my eyes.
it's soft whisper,
calmed my soul,
it's words chilled
down my spine.
it spoke to me
and said its name,
shock filled my body,
its name so familiar,
a name i trusted.

let us remember together
because you love to laugh at me
let us remember together
because these are the things I cannot forget
you say it hurts you to remember
but these are our memories of you
but you prefer our memories of me
so why don't you all laugh at me
it doesn't matter if I'm hurt
just disregard with laughter
everything I say that might matter
and all I wanted was to let you know
but you just laughed me away.

and that is what I have come to trust in you.
bragging about how nothing bothers you
as you look for any button
that bothers someone else
that is your greatest pleasure
and favourite hiding spot
so trust me when I tell you
you who are shallow,
do not speak when you are spoken too
you who are my love,
do not let me do this
you who are ignorant,
do not think I ever trusted you
you who are my friend,
do not think I ever had a choice.

you who ridiculed my name,
I ask you,
what is the meaning of

This.

~l,A.

she loved ro laugh at you,
i just love to laugh.
so i promised
i would never hurt you,
but you just laughed right in my face.
it hurts most to remember
the tears i've cried on too many nights.
but i took your laughter in stride,
i do enjoy your laugh,
and laughters never hurt me,
it's always the words behind the laugh.

i know why you chose to laugh,
and completely dismiss my words.
you believe no one
who says they won't hurt you.
you've been laughed at
too much in your past.

laughter is meant to be happy.
the only tears they cause
should be joys.
the only pain the fits of laughter should cause
should be the aching in your ribs.

so i'll hold your hand as their laughter
echoes in your mind.
i won't ask for you to trust me,
i'll hope that comes in time.

yet.

she'll laugh
and gain love.
she'll laugh
though she's not worthy.
she'll laugh
but she'll never understand.
she'll laugh
thinking she has your trust.
she'll laugh
and i'll caress your words,
your name a pleasure in my brain.

i'll ask you to remember this.

the only laughter worthy of attention,
is the laughter
that doesn't cause you pain.